Whoever said it was impossible to deceive yourself? I’ve just proved that theory wrong. It all began today, or ytd.
I stayed up till 12 last night and woke at 5 this mornin to work on my SS. The exam was today and my teacher had irresponsibly canceled the last remedial. It was fortunate that I had come across a five-year series SS assessment in popular with Bob ytd. I got it for abt 3 bucks and used it for my revision. When I reached school this morning at about 6.45 to study some more, I asked if I could borrow my friend’s exam timetable as I had lost mine. I was wondering why no one tried some last minute study for the upcoming exam exactly hour later. I looked at my friend’s timetable and realized that the exam was next Monday. I felt really stupid. See? This proves the theory wrong. It is possible to deceive yourself. I have just proven it, in my case. Well anyway… praise God. Now I have more time for study. I haven’t worked on my essay writing skills. The thing is, I’ve caught a flu bug, and my friend thought that I had a fever when he touched my forehead in school. He suspected himself of having one but instead, he discovered that I was the one havin a fever while he was comparing the temperatures. At least he thought I had a fever. I don’t know if its true yet. Hopefully not. I can’t afford to miss out on any lessons anymore. If I have to fall ill, let me recover on Wednesday since its Labour day tomorrow, providing me with time to rest. Must be the lack of sleep. Talkin about sleep, I better go. Don’t think my body can take more of this.

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Mid years are just about two weeks away.. English paper one is nearing either this Friday or Monday. Sigh.. I’m so worried about my social studies. Then again, I say this, I’ve never gotten like 75% and above for almost any subject at all. Okay, maybe I got that in 2 subjects? But anyway that was last year! This year.. I’ve not gotten 75% or above for any of my subjects. It was Term Assessment, so shouldn’t be too bad as it only contributes to 10% of the overall. The thing is, in order to get to express I have to get at least 75% and above for all my subjects and, how am I supposed to do that? Although I’ve started studying one month before the Mid years, 7th of April, I’ve haven’t really been mugging hard. I keep getting distracted. And I seldom stick to my study timetable cuz it was set by myself! I keep making changes to it, like.. shortening the study time. Every night I feel that I’ve wasted the day.. and I tell myself to be focused the next day. The same thing happens the next day, I waste the day and regret at night before I go to sleep again. The cycle repeats itself. This isn’t getting me anywhere. Although, I’ve prayed to God every night about my exams and stuff.. I still don’t feel that I can make it. Its like trying to do the impossible. Tryin to get 75% and above from bother line pass and even failed some. I know with God I can do the impossible. I know that in my mind. But I just can’t get that feeling. I know it’s a fact that with God, I can do the impossible, but I just can’t get my senses to feel that way. I worry every day, every night. Well.. what lies ahead of me doesn’t seem like a really perfect path. Even if I do get to express, will I be able to cope? Will I be able to take the pressure? The stress? but if I say I can’t take it, I should just stay the normal acad, what lies ahead for me? Waste an extra year in secondary school? Take three more years to complete my studies? Cuz I’m planning to get into the polytechnic. I love a free life, so its set that I’m going to the polytechnic. Spend 8 years on my education? Okay.. maybe that would seem like smooth sailing for me but, I don’t wanna waste an extra year when I can save one year. Even if its stressful, I will endure. I know I won’t be alone, the Lord will always be there. Right now, I think I’ll just have to trust that the Lord would take me to the correct path, the path that he had planned for me. But I still really really wanna get to express. Its not really that impossible with Chinese out of the way. Cuz I take CLB(Chinese language B). But I still have doubts. I don’t doubt the Lord but, myself =(
Can you people pray for me? I really really hope to do well this mid year. And I would appreciate it if you really prayed for me.
Thanks =))

~entrusting my future to the Lord. Hmm.. seems hard, but I’ll try~

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Friday, April 20, 2007

10:38 PM

Hey, its sports day. Ended much earlier than usual. Matt an I were planning to escape. Lols. But while we were waiting for the perfect moment to climb over the gate, there was an announcement for everyone to fall in. In the field under the hot sun of cuz! It was like.. 11am. So me and Matt were like, oh its time to fall in and go home, saves us the trouble of escaping. So we went to fall in. Actually we just waited in the toilet under the shade. =D
We knew they were gonna do the prize giving and all that crap while everyone was supposed to suffer under the sun. Think they’re’ just tryin to make us get a heatstroke or smth. But, no way I’m just gonna take it like a brainless looser. I was under the shade near the toilet the whole time. And if anyone asked me to sit in the field with everyone else, I would just tell them I needed to use the toilet. It was quite a while till they finished everything. Well, it ended anw and I took an MRT home. Reached home about lunch time and.. well, went to buy lunch at Tanjong Pagar. That’s about all for the day..
Oh yah, Social Studies sucks. While I was tryin to do a SBQ about the government or some crap, I took like.. half an hour and still couldn’t think of what to write. Okay.. maybe I’m the one that just suck. I seriously need someone to help me with all these stuff. Even maths, I couldn’t do anything. Stupid Geometry. Well.. lemme share smth about my maths teacher, also known as my form teacher. I’m starting to dislike him alr. He gave a remedial on trigonometry and you know what? That’s the topic I’m best at. I asked him to revise with me Geometry or Indices(I’m not very good with this, although for most of you, its quite simple) but he simply said:“ Not today, I’m revising that next week” I was like wth, how am I supposed to do my studying if I don’t understand the thing. Whats more, there were only like.. 3 students that turned up for remedial! Supposed to be 8 at a time but.. only 3 turned up. I finished the worksheets on trigonometry like it was some primary sch questions. The teacher was like.. Hmm.. not bad arh. I felt that my time was so wasted. He was right there and here I was, unable to get him to help me with the stuff I didn’t understand.
Oh well.. guess I’ll just have to wait for this Sunday so I can ask Bob or someone. Okay.. I’m feeling a little tired. Gonna bed now, hav a game tomorrow at Tanjong Pagar CC.

~teachers aren’t supposed to deny requests concerning help in studies~

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Monday, April 16, 2007

7:47 PM

Today, I will post on the reasons why you should visit LSSN.
1. LSSN is funny
2. LSSN is a good source of entertainment
3. I myself love LSSN
4. It relieves stress
5. It was made through Loads of effort!
6. It influences one to be against gays and aquas so the aquas and gays would try to become non-gays and aquas
7. It excercises... Free Speech!
8. It aims to entertain people
9. It was made by some hardworking people who.. didn't have to make it, but still made it for Your sake!
10. It is free
11. It is gonna become better than Mr Brown(for students, I hope)
12. It is better than talkingcock.com
13. It is cool
14. It was made by respectable people
15. It needs viewers(there wouldn't be any point in the web if there weren't any)
16. It simply rox! and.. you know what? It has a COMMENTS PAGE!!

So why not visit the web today? maybe.. on a regular basis? haha. that'd be cool
http://lssn.blogspot.com
Theres a friendster group for LSSN supporters too. Please join if you do support LSSN =)

~hey, there are only 52 posts on lssn and 54 posts here, yeah lets keep it that way. 2 more posts than lssn always~

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Friday, April 13, 2007

8:08 PM

Oh crraap! LSSN has the same no. of posts as this blog alr. I better buck up. Okay so.. today wasn’t that bad a day. Had SS(social studies) make up lesson after sch for Monday. In case some of you can’t recall, it was speech day + founder’s day. Geez.. wonder how many lessons I’m gonna miss cuz of the upcoming events. Theres Labour day on.. either this or next coming Monday. Then theres sports day on next Friday. Still can’t believe I’m gonna run for the house. I signed up for high jump and long jump! And you know whats the best part? I have never done any long or high jumping in my life! Maybe I should check youtube or something to get a rough idea. Oh yah, and I forgot to mention, I got a pic of some gals at tm on that day, the day when I watched The Number23.

errm, now you know why I took it? Anglician High sia.. at least I think so.

I was like.. wth! why does one of them have that word on their shirt?? Well.. that was the joke of the day. Now.. its back to studies. I still haven't really found anyone to study with. As in on weekdays. Thank you Christopher, Bob and Joel for studying with me on Sundays =)

hmm.. oh yah, worship last Sat at Amazing Asia was great. Wait, did I already mention that in my last post? oh well.. just in case I haven't. Ahh! I forgot to practice guitar, its this comin Sun. nvm.. I never practice anw. Hey did you know TGIF is Global? haha, anw thats abt all for today and this post.

~ Its Friday the 13th~

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Monday, April 09, 2007

7:18 PM

Happy Easter! Okay fine.. that was ytd. Happy belated Easter then. During these past few days.. or weeks which I haven’t blogged, I watched “the number 23” and “TMNT” yeah!! The number 23 was kinda stupid but, was quite interesting. TMNT… The storyboard was kinda below my expectation but nevertheless.. still quite enjoyable. The fighting and stuff were really cool as expected. Graphics were great. I broke my record, I watched 2 movies in a week! haha. I watched both movies with Zack. Everyone else were busy as usual. We went to watch the movies on good Friday and Easter Sunday. I carelessly burned a hole in my wallet during these past 2 days. I took a cab from home to church on sat cuz of Easter conference. I took a cab again cuz of sunrise service on Easter Sunday. Hmm.. it would be rather confusing if I talk about 2 days at the same time, so I’ll just put…

Saturday:
Woke about 11am. Was supposed to play badminton with my cousin at Tanjong Pagar CC which was located nearby. I reached there at about 11.33am I think.. my cousin wasn’t there yet. I went to book a court at the office counter. Since the procedures for booking a required me to fill in a form which took me quite long… I booked the court from 12noon to 1pm. Besides.. my cousin hadn’t even reached. He arrived when I was filling in the form. We left out the office counter at about 11.50am and went to the badminton court first. It seemed that no one had booked the court cuz the court was empty. So we started a little earlier. We stopped at 1.30pm cuz the game was like.. getting interesting? Well anyway I went to buy some food after the game. I brought the takeaway home.. Got ready for Easter conference and realized that I didn’t have time for lunch. So I put my lunch and a bottle of mineral water into a plastic bag and left for the bus stop. I was planning to eat on the bus along the way. While I was walking to the bus stop, I spotted bus 10(the only bus I could take to church) in front of me. It was driving towards the bus stop. I ran for the bus. It passed the bus stop cuz there was no one boarding or alighting. It stopped at the traffic light just a few meters away from the bus stop. I though “yeah, I can make it” so I ran and reached the bus at the traffic light. I knocked on the door or the bus. The bus driver stared at me and gave me the “what do you want” look. I was like using hand sign asking him to let me on. He pointed at the bus stop behind. I think he ment “take the next bus” since he didn’t let me board. I was like, noooo! Open the door!! I wanted to kick the door or something. But I didn’t. I walked back to the bus stop and sat down. I looked at the time. It was 2.40pm so that ment that if I waited for the next bus it would be 2.55 or 3pm earliest. Easter conference ‘Amazing Asia’ would have started! And I would be 40 mins late. So I decided to catch a cab. So that was the cause of the hole in my wallet. At least half of the cause. I ate my lunch in church at the fellowship deck. Amazing Asia was ‘truly’ amazing. There were like not even half the number of ppl from FL. It didn’t turn out as fun as I had expected , but it was quite educational. It was about mission trips and stuff about the diff countries. The worship was great. One of the best, like the one in JYC. Well.. it ended quite late. I took bus 10 and overslept! xD
I woke up and saw.. Vivo City. I was like oh crap, not again. So I got down and took a bus at the opposite bus stop. I reached home at like.. 11.30pm. Washed up and went to bed.

Sunday:
Woke up, 4.15am wash up and got ready for sunrise service. Reached the mrt station at abt 5.20am. ~First train 6.03am~ I was like, oh crap.. now how am I gonna get to east coast and reach there by 6.30am? So I took a cab there. Took a cab to Mac. That was how the other half of the hole was burned in my wallet. I reached there like.. 5.40am. Ate breakfast till about 6.20am and started calling my frens. Actually, only timothy(kiong) my CGL. He didn’t pick up. So I called the other person whom I knew was going, Dawn. Didn’t pick up also.. So I kept calling timothy. He didn’t pick up in the end. I called him like over 10 times! I started walking around east coast and hopefully I would find the place, but to no avail. Well.. I couldn’t find out which part of east coast the sunrise service was being held at, so I gave up and walked towards the bus stop about 1km away. I sms-ed some others about the location of the sunrise service. When I reached the bus stop, sophie replied. Its at f2 carpark. I didn’t really bother to go back and look for it cuz I was carrying my bag and it was pulling me down. So I didn’t feel like moving anymore. I took a bus to Bedok interchange. I took the mrt from there to Tanah Merah after that. Took 45 to church. Started reading/doing my chemistry assessment at the fellowship deck when I reached. It was about 7.30am, well.. at least I got to spend some time with my books. Joel came at about 9am, half and hour early. So.. he joined me. When it was 9.30am, we went to the sanctuary for service. After a few mins.. we decided to go to the CM(children ministry) since there was no FL. Since we were the older ones.. we had to help out in their games.. It finished far later than service in the sanctuary, it finished at around 11+ close to noon. Zack and I hadn’t watched TMNT yet, so we went to TM. I was supposed to go there and buy something anw. If you wanna know, you’ll see it this Sunday. That is if, you’re from FL. If you’re not and really really wanna know what it is.. then, just ask me. Lolls. So anw, that’s about everything.

Monday(today):
Started off with a slight drizzle. It only started drizzling when I left my house-.-
I was like wth.. Anw, its founder’s day today so.. no classes! Yay? Maybe I should not be happy but disappointed instead cuz I need the time for study. Well.. went to suntec after that. Matthias tagged along cuz he wanted to come to my house and play my ps2. He was planning to go someone else’s house at first.. but the person didn’t come to school. He didn’t even pick up when Matthias called him. Matthias said he was coming to my house. I was like.. wah lao.. use me as last resort, just cuz you have no one’s house to go to. So anw, I couldn’t really stop him from tagging along. So I told him I was going suntec first. He said “ok, I’ll follow you”. So I said “okay lor” I was going there to get a new wallet anw. Since I burned a hole in my wallet. Hahaha jk lah. I just wanted a diff wallet after 3 years of using that Billabong one.. I went to “The Wallet Shop” to find one. Call me crazy but I took like.. 2 hours to finally come to a decision. The wallets there were all so nice x)
Couldn’t decide which to get. I just got some money from my mum so don’t worry, I had enough money to pay for the wallet. The 2 hours was also punishment for Matthias for usin me as a last resort to whose house he should go to. I was like askin him to go TM at first so I could go and get a new wallet. He kept disagreeing cuz he wanted to go to someone else’s house. Turned out he couldn’t. So he said “ I wanna go ur house” I was like.. ok, but you must follow me to suntec since it was along the way if I took bus 10 home, which I did. So.. we ate lunch there and took bus 10 again back to my house. Maybe he shouldn’t have come, cuz he distrupted my timetable for studying. Since I was gonna start today. Well anw, after this post, its dinner and… studying spree! Hope I can get good grades and go to express. Ciao
~I carelessly burnt a hole~

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