Are my cries heard?

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

11:03 PM

Finally back from ihope. Geez, this feels so troublesome. Well, I dunno but I just feel that its my duty to keep this blog alive.

Friday:
Went back to CDC for badminton classes. Had extremely tough training, but I survived.

Saturday:
ihope!! finally. Reached Bouna Vista at about 8++ . Got really fed up cuz I had a lot of trouble in the morning putting on my contacts. It made me like what, 20mins off schedule. Well, no matter. Bob was also late anw. Met Elisa and Nick by coincidence at the station. We splitted cuz Bob hadn’t arrived. Met Bob a while later. Surprisingly, Daniel took the same train. So we went together. We took a gamble and followed a group of people and hopefully, we would end up in ACJC. Indeed we ended up there. Worship there was great. There was a talk by Sy Rogers there. It was really good. He talks about how he had been a homosexual in the past and almost went for a sexchange because others treated him differently. It all started when his mother died in an accident. His dad sent him away because the dad had some financial problems. Or at least something like that anyway, he grew up in an environment where there were mostly females because in the home where his father sent him, there were.. only females. So he adopted their style of talking and stuff like that so he was treated differently. When his dad had no more problems, his dad remarried and took him back. Sy’s parents tried to address his problems by sending him to the baseball team, wrestling team, soccer team, but the people around him still treated him differently. As the bible says “there is power in the words” (or at least something like that. I forgot which verse was it) when Sy grew up, he began to think he was really different. He went to some famous clinic for a sexchange sometime later. The doctor asked him to live for two years as a woman before the operation. But when Sy told the doctor who he was, the doctor was like “Oh, you’re Sy Rogers! Okay you can go for the operation now” When he was in the middle of the operation, before they did anything to him, god’s holy sprit said “STOOOP!” (that was what he said in the talk) and somehow he didn’t continue with the operation. Another thing, he was a Christian in the past. Somehow he was sexually mistreated and he asked God “why? Why did you allow such things to happen to me?” his believe in God strongly decreased. Continuing from before the phrase “Another thing,” Somehow Sy decided to live the two years as a woman. During that time, he somehow found God again and realized that God didn’t want him to go for the operation. It was on a fine day, when he was driving.. the radio announced that the famous clinic Sy was going for his operation was closed down because the research showed that the operation didn’t do any good to the victims. It couldn’t have been more clear! To tell Sy that he didn’t want him to go for the operation, he closed down the whole system the whole clinic. Sy started living like a man from then onwards. He discovered girls finally. “its like going through puberty all over again” he said. He got married to a bold woman who didn’t mind his past. They had a daughter and is now getting married next week. Sy said that he had to be back in his country for the wedding. And that’s about all for his talk. I went for 3 other conferences later and went off for movie night! We were really late cuz the shuttle bus service was canceled due to lack of frontliners going for ihope. See lah! You ppl. I ask you go, you don’t go. Oh wells.. reached really late but nevertheless, I got to watch Pirates Of The Caribbean(dead man’s chest).

Sunday:
woke up only to find someone beating me with the sleeping mat. It was all blurry and I couldn’t figure out who that was. I think it was Bob, but it looked a little diff. Must have been cuz he wasn’t wearing his specs. After FL, me, Matthew and Kenneth went to TM to catch Pirates Of The Caribbean(at world’s end). We took a bus to Tampines Safra to play LAN. Went home after that and that was that.

~i hope, do you?~

issit cloud nine?

Friday, May 18, 2007

9:00 PM

Sorry, hadn’t blogged much recently.
There was school on Tuesday! I didn’t come cuz I thought there was no school! When Matthias woke me with a phone call in the morning..

Matthias: “oi, what happened to you?”

Me: “huh?”

Matthias: *repeats himself* “oi, what happened to you?”

Me: “what happened to me?”

Matthias: “why never come school today”

Me: “theres school today?!?”

Matthias: “yah, of cuz lah what do you think. Eh eh, tmr also got sch you
know?”

Me: “I know I know, I thought today also marking day”

Matthias: “marking day was only yesterday”

Me: “Wahh lao, I tot Monday and today”

And that was how I missed school on Tuesday.

Nothing much happened on Wednesday and Thursday, only that I collected my papers back. I got 20 or 30%+ for combined humanities and 40%+ for DNT despite my reckless studying, but I got 73% for combined science(physics and chemistry). 63% for my E-math. Btw, only 5 people passed paper1 and 11 people passed overall cuz of paper2. That’s why I said, sheesh damned class.. I got pulled down by them.

Now, about today.
5.48am –*ring* ring*(my handphon rings) I woke and answered the call.

Me: “hello? Yes Matt what do you want”

Matthias: “what time are you leaving your house for the Jog-a-ton later”

Me: “errm.. 6.50”

Matthias: “is you’re mother fetching you there?”

Me: “yah why”

Matthias: “can tong pang?”

Me: “wah lao, you called so early just for this? You woke me up from my good dream cuz of this??”
Note: I was dreaming that I was odering food. Matt called me when I finished ordering it and was about to take the first bite. What a waste!

Matthias: “oh sorry lah”

And that was the start of the day. When we reached the Venue, we got our attendance marked and.. ran!
Well, I dunno whats gonna happen on Monday but lets just hope the teachers didn’t notice anything or even if they did, hopefully they forgot. It was like..

Me: “Ai yah, let not do this lah”

Matthias: “why? You scared arh?”

Me: “no, its just that.. I risk my position”

Matthias: “what do you mean?”

Me: “if Mr heng finds out, I risk my position of being teacher’s pet.

Matthias: “ai yah, nvm one lah”

Me: “easy for you to say, you’re not the teacher's pet anw”

Matthias: “You’ve been teacher's pet from dunno how long alr? Since primary sch primary 6 all”

Me: no, I wasn’t teacher’s pet in primary 6

Matthias: Fine whatever. Just go now so I can go you house??

Me: fine fine, I also can’t take much more of this waiting actually.

That’s about what happened in the morning.
I got my very own tennis racket today! Yeah. Gonna start lessons tmr.
I got a new cap and.. a new top! Yaay this so rox. Okay anw I gtg cya.

~dream-o-serve~

issit cloud nine?

Sunday, May 13, 2007

9:04 PM

Ooohh My Goodness. I think I’ve fallen for tennis! Went to play at Zack’s house just now. It was drizzling though. Even with that, we continued. When it finally started pouring, we left the court. Tennis is like.. so thrilling. It kinda requires less strength than badminton. I didn’t know it was this fun. When I did the usual service(badminton style) the ball flew out of the court. Needless to say, it was gone. I lost about 3 balls in total while I was playin just now. One flew into a window of someone’s house! I was like.. omg, did I break a window? The ball flew over the fence of the court and landed into someone’s window! Fortunately, the window was open, so I didn’t break any windows.
PS: the court was in Zack’s condo. So there were some houses nearby.
I wanted to run, but I stayed just so I could play tennis a little longer. I dunno why but, although our longest rally was like, abt 4-5 times, it was still fun. It sounds kinda stupid how I first wanted to try playin tennis again after not liking it when I first tried, perhaps I was too small then. The court was like a field.. and I had to defend it. Now, its like a room.. okay fine, maybe a hall(as in the ones at home, in short: living room) the ball seems to move so slowly and its really not that difficult to get it. unlike the last time. I started watching an anime called “Prince of Tennis” on youtube and got interested to try it out. Not because kids central showed it or anything, just that it reminded me that I wanted to watch prince of tennis since a long time ago, but didn’t bother. At last I watched it, and here I am, soo interested in the game. Well.. its really ironic isn’t it? Now, all I have to do is wait and see how time affects my interest for the game. I would really really be glad to have more exercise. Okay.. time to watch prince of tennis!
Ciao.

~oh no, what happens when the owner discovers the tennis ball which flew in~

issit cloud nine?

Friday, May 11, 2007

10:46 PM

Y.E.A.H! Yes Examinations Are Hard, but.. its all over!! Finally. Now I can stop all that mugging after 1 month. So.. it kinda feels weird not studying. Now.. its time to play hard! Haha jk. T.G.I.F exams are over yeah yeah yeah!!

~bye bye mugging, at least till after June holidays~

issit cloud nine?

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

10:47 PM

Oooh yeah! No sch tomorrow cuz I don’t take POA. An extra day for me to revise my work. Sigh.. the papers I took so far were sooo tough. I don’t know how I am gonna get through but I shall just lift up all my worries and cares to the Lord. Geez.. only 2 more days and I’m free! No more studying!! After one month. I’m finally free. I bet I would feel weird not studying. Not to worry, I’m gonna study all the way when the June holidays are over. Well anw, Geog paper was hard and Chemistry was extremely easy today, only the MCQ was not extremely easy, it was kinda tricky. Well anw, I’ve managed to pull through today. Took SS ytd and it was hard as expected and math Paper1 was quite okay, I know I can pass.. but can I do well? Well I can only hope and pray. Gonna mug for the whole day again tomorrow. Muggin for math Paper2 and physics. Thursday is math Paper2. Next on Friday is D&T and physics.
I found my file!! Woohooo! opps, I don’t think I’ve mentioned it but I lost the file ytd and got really worried. I cam back to sch today and found the fella sittin in front of me holdin my file waving it at me. He said “are you lookin for this?” I was like omg yeah! I thought it was gone for good. I questioned him “Did you take it?!?” he was like.. no no I found it under your desk. I was thinking.. strange, I don’t remember takin my file out. He might have taken it for a day to prank me or smth.. or it was just as he said, under the table. Well anw, I’ve found it and don’t wish to pursue the matter. Praise God. It has all my notes inside. Every piece of paper my teachers gave me, I would just dump it inside the file. Okay.. enough about this.
Had lunch with Mitch today at Bedok Interchange Mac. He told me he didn’t like fries. I was like huh?? How can anyone not like fries? Then he replied “me”. I was like.. oh, then you stand alone, haha no lah. Well, in the end he still got a meal with fries. I ask him why he didn’t change it to wedges. He told me it was more expensive. I was like duh, anw its only 50cents more and for someone who didn’t like fries he should hav paid the 50 cents. I never imagined, Mitch would actually eat with me. I thought he treated everyone like an outcast or smth. Like he couldn’t trust anyone. I think I’ve mentioned this before but.. it took me from sec1 to sec3 to finally get his number, and it was cuz I was helping him with LSSN. He wouldn’t even send me a file unless I sent him a file as big and it must be likable to him. As in he has to be the one to ask me for the file. Then we’ll trade files. If I sent him one file, he would only send me one file back. If I sent him 2 files like.. short sounds(usually funny stuff) and I wanted a song which is still larger than the 2 files I sent him, he would just say “no, I won’t send you the song. I’m selfish and I like it that way”. So that’s that.
Yaay, I’m going for Ihope. Hey, lets all go. Don’t pang seh me again arh. And.. Bob, I’m gonna drag you along =D
Theres so many cool programs comin up after Mid years. Oooh I’m so excited. Theres the movie night thing after Ihope too! Well.. gotta go
Ciao

~I will lift up all my cares and worries to you and you alone~

issit cloud nine?